someday...

i want to visit Chincoteague Island, Virginia to watch the ponies being hearded across the river to the mainland for auction. awe to see a childhood book come true. i'm speaking of Misty of Chincoteague this site gives you an idea of Misty and the history. i loved that book as a kid and just happend upon this site tonite. it would be magic. the sad part of this story is that they have actually stuffed poor misty and one of her foals. their remains are now on display. eww. poor misty.

like OMG

i'm frickin' blogging, who'da thunk it?!
i want this site so bad, but i just don't want to work on it. i think it's the fact that i sit in front of a computer all day long at work. i want a new layout. i want content. but i don't want to sit here for 8 hours to do it all. anyway i don't have that much time. excuses, excuses. whatever. i figure if i just start blogging, i will regain the passion i once had when i had my other site. i have a mental list of things to accomplish but i just don't do them -- i've become lazy and i hate it. i'm not that way at work. i'm on top of things there. this is my challenge and my hope that i will regain the passion for the things that i used to love. it's just hard. i'm sad. this makes me sad. i'm going to beat it. i want to start writing again and doing art. maybe i will try to go morning pages, maybe evening pages... hmmm i need to make time to find me. this was supposed to be my journey, but now it's just my purgatory. i need goals again. i've achieved the ones that i had. i need new ones. i need to work on this site, i want to be proud again. this is going to help me be me. random babbling is now over. i'm such a dork. ok now it's really over. ;)