I think my calling in life is/was

ok, i know i was off the grid for a bit, but i'm back and ready to ramble.

my first reaction to this topic was for me to think of it career wise. lately, myself and many of my co-workers have been contemplating other careers we could have. health care seems an obvious choice b/c of the job security. but i really don't think i could handle it. if i even get close to a gnarly smell -- upchuck. so that's not doable for me. i have all of these ideas and aspirations, but i don't think they're really achievable. i'd still like to design clothes for plus size girls. i think that current plus size designer are probably a size two. that's why nothing ever fits me right! oh and i love art. it really is like home to me. i know it's strange to say that, but it's always been there for me. i couldn't be an art teach to small children, i'd lose my mind. maybe the elderly or college aged kids. what i've always wanted to do is write and illustrate children's books. it's something that i've always come back to, since i was about seven. lately i think it would be cool to design greeting cards too. anyway i don't really know what my calling is in life, but i'm going with the flow and putting it in GOD's hands. who knows maybe i'll be a pharmacist like my mom told me be!